This seems to be a year of love and heartaches. Not just for me but for my close circle of friends. A number of them are getting married, a few just broke up, some are going through dilemmas, while others have overcome theirs.

Last Saturday, a bunch of us, Kevin, Cheng Yee, Li-Na & I were chosen to be on the panel to share about BGR issues to the youth. They were over 70 of them, mainly 13 to 17 year olds. Boy was it nerve wrecking!! But praise God that we shared from our heart and experiences that God has guide us through.

It was like a healing process for me as I shared of my first & only relationship. It was more than 5 year ago but the memories remains deep inside me. Looking back, I know why God put me through it. I'm the kind of person who would willingly sacrifice just to keep things going.

But God spoke to me one day & said that the only person I should be sacrificing so much for, is Him. Only Him alone deserves so much.

To learn to love, you must let go. And that's what I did. Let go of my dreams of eventually marrying my first love. It wasn't easy but I had to do it. I'm who I am today because of the decisions made. I gained true friendship and was able to pursue my dreams of serving the needy. I'm still working at it but at least I'm on the right track.

My prayer is this..

Dear Lord, help us all to guard our bro & sisters-in-Christ hearts. Let us not mislead them but encourage them as they seek to do Your Will. For a man who seeks you first, is a righteous one. Amen!

I'm glad I found someone who shares my passion to serve the needy. I would not want all your love just for myself. For I believe, something good should be shared. Just like God's love & salvation for us. True happiness comes from sharing. Thank you God & thank YOU for being that someone who believes in sharing & serving others :) 

Your humble servant,
~Jess